My family and I have had a rough couple of weeks. We lost two of our Elders in our family within days of one another. On top of that the baby has been sick and we have been battling his problems trying to get him better. Finally I think we are seeing the light at the end of the dark tunnel.
With the passing of our family members, it brings me to think of what I would wish for myself. My husband and I have started to discuss what our wishes would be and decided that we need to talk ALOT more about the subject. One of my wishes was to have a home funeral and have my husband tend to my body after I die. He feels really uncomfortable with it. He thinks he will be too emotional to be able to do it.
So I guess I am starting to doubt about what I have already written down. It's good that I do have my thoughts down on paper, but what good will they be if he (or my future adult children) choose not to honor them? Hubby thinks that funerals are for the living, not the deceased. I think it does give those that remain a closure to say goodbye to the one they loved and have lost. However, I also believe that if a person goes out of their way to write down their final wishes it should be honored.
Every Samhain, I write my own obituary. I want to know how I could possibly be remembered as. Each and every year we grow and change as people do. This year for Samhain, I will re-evaluate all I have put to paper and think what do I really want? What do I want to leave for my loved ones? I have seen funerals tear families apart for the struggle of what is "rightfully" theirs, and I have seen families drawn closer together and not give a rat's ass about material things which was a totally wonderful experience.
I hope in the long run that I will be blessed to love and share my life with my husband as long at Uncle B and Aunt P had together. They were married to each other for most of their life. They made it well past their Fiftith Wedding Anniversary many many years ago. I never seen them apart, and they were always showing signs right to the end that they were every bit as much in love as they were when they first met!
May they rest in peace, and give me and my husband the strong foundation of what a good marriage is and what two people can achieve together whenever they have a strong partner they love!
Lammas is shortly upon us. I wish you all well and Happy Harvest!
I will be revisiting old friends from Sacred Birch. Terry has put together a reunion of sorts for old members to come back and say hello with one another. It will be good to see old friends and also celebrate my coven sister Katherine's achievement being done with Chemo! She kicked her disease's butt to the curb!
"Fall Cleaning" will shortly begin. We will be putting our house for market next spring, so the Fall clean will be another massive overhall and preparations of what we will need to do prior to putting it for sale.
Sincerely,
Crystal
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
7-16-2010
Well this has been a very rough week. We first lost hubby's uncle, now his wife has passed! Two in three days. Emotionally I am drained. We just got back from the emergency room with the baby! His diaper rash is so bad that he now has blisters and they are bleeding! Waiting for the medicine to be filled now!
Please Goddess help me!
Sincerely,
Crystal
Please Goddess help me!
Sincerely,
Crystal
Food Journal for 7-15-2010
Today is my sister's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NETTIE!
Breakfast
1 mug of Community Coffee with 3 tea sugar. I am starting to think that Splenda and my body are not getting along. Will stop for one week to get back to "normal" and then try it again to see if it is indeed splenda. I also had 1 crumpet with Nutella.
Lunch
Ham and Cheese sandwich with one snack bag of Cheese Its.
Large glass of water
Dinner
Last night we ate Trinity Venison (cooked with onion, bell pepper, and celery, then the pot was deglazed with water to make a "gravy")
1/2 cup of Lipton Chicken Rice and Sauce (Lancer's favorite)
1 small baked potato with two sprays of So you think its Butter.
I did have a late night snack of 1/2 a bag of microwave popcorn.
We received some bad news that there was a death in the family. So my emails and journaling may be off kinder until later next week while I spend time with my family during this time.
Just pray that I don't over indulge in food. Its times like this that are my weekness. I am an emotional eater. Goddess help me!
Sincerely
Crystal
Breakfast
1 mug of Community Coffee with 3 tea sugar. I am starting to think that Splenda and my body are not getting along. Will stop for one week to get back to "normal" and then try it again to see if it is indeed splenda. I also had 1 crumpet with Nutella.
Lunch
Ham and Cheese sandwich with one snack bag of Cheese Its.
Large glass of water
Dinner
Last night we ate Trinity Venison (cooked with onion, bell pepper, and celery, then the pot was deglazed with water to make a "gravy")
1/2 cup of Lipton Chicken Rice and Sauce (Lancer's favorite)
1 small baked potato with two sprays of So you think its Butter.
I did have a late night snack of 1/2 a bag of microwave popcorn.
We received some bad news that there was a death in the family. So my emails and journaling may be off kinder until later next week while I spend time with my family during this time.
Just pray that I don't over indulge in food. Its times like this that are my weekness. I am an emotional eater. Goddess help me!
Sincerely
Crystal
Food Journal for 7-14-2010
Howdy!
I hope you had a great day today. Last night was pretty rough for me. The baby did not want to sleep. He was having some serious issues with either teething or gas. He just could not sleep more than 30 minute intervals. I did not get a chance to go to sleep until about 2:30, shortly after my hubby took pity on me and got up with the baby when he started to cry at 3am. Then it was back up at 4:30 due to hubby's alarm clock going off cause he stayed on the couch with the baby. I have been awake for quite some time now. I sure hope today/night goes much better.
Here is my log for today:
Breakfast
1 Sandwich thin spread with 2 teaspoons of Nutella. (1 per slice)
1 glass of Splenda sweet tea
Lunch
Romaine Lettuce with FF Mozz Cheese and Lite Ranch Dressing.
Dinner
Tonight Lancer had tball game so it was dinner with the inlaws. I had 1 Arby's Roast Burger and a diet pop.
I hope you had a great day today. Last night was pretty rough for me. The baby did not want to sleep. He was having some serious issues with either teething or gas. He just could not sleep more than 30 minute intervals. I did not get a chance to go to sleep until about 2:30, shortly after my hubby took pity on me and got up with the baby when he started to cry at 3am. Then it was back up at 4:30 due to hubby's alarm clock going off cause he stayed on the couch with the baby. I have been awake for quite some time now. I sure hope today/night goes much better.
Here is my log for today:
Breakfast
1 Sandwich thin spread with 2 teaspoons of Nutella. (1 per slice)
1 glass of Splenda sweet tea
Lunch
Romaine Lettuce with FF Mozz Cheese and Lite Ranch Dressing.
Dinner
Tonight Lancer had tball game so it was dinner with the inlaws. I had 1 Arby's Roast Burger and a diet pop.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Daily Food Journal 7-13-2010
I was too tired to post last night, so I am doing it now before I forget to do so!
Breakfast
1 cup coffee with 2 splenda packets and 1 tbs FF Half and Half
1 Crumpet with 1 tbs of Nutella
Yes I realize that Nutella is not exactly low in calories and fat. I am using up the food that is currently in my pantry and will try to limit the not so good for your waste foods in moderation until they are gone. As much as I want to lose weight, I can not afford to throw any food out either.
Lunch
On the road running errands today, so it was two soft shell chicken Fresco tacos with a diet Pepsi.
I have found out that I do not like diet Pepsi.
Dinner
4 oz of Flank steak sauted in Pam. (I dare to say fried very loosely!)
Mushrooms and Green beans cooked with Pam with 1 tbs (in the pot) of Lite crumbled bacon to give it a smokey flavor. Sweet Tea made with Splenda for my drink.
Breakfast
1 cup coffee with 2 splenda packets and 1 tbs FF Half and Half
1 Crumpet with 1 tbs of Nutella
Yes I realize that Nutella is not exactly low in calories and fat. I am using up the food that is currently in my pantry and will try to limit the not so good for your waste foods in moderation until they are gone. As much as I want to lose weight, I can not afford to throw any food out either.
Lunch
On the road running errands today, so it was two soft shell chicken Fresco tacos with a diet Pepsi.
I have found out that I do not like diet Pepsi.
Dinner
4 oz of Flank steak sauted in Pam. (I dare to say fried very loosely!)
Mushrooms and Green beans cooked with Pam with 1 tbs (in the pot) of Lite crumbled bacon to give it a smokey flavor. Sweet Tea made with Splenda for my drink.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Daily Food Journal 7-12-2010
Here is what I did today.
Breakfast
2 cups of Community Coffee with 4 teaspoons (2 per) of splenda and Fat Free Half and Half
2 cups of watermelon
Lunch
Caeser Salad:
1 small head of Romaine Lettuce
2 Tablespoon of Fat Free Caeser Croutons
1/4 cup of Romano Cheese
1 Tablespoon of Lite Bacon Bits
2 Tbs of Fat Free Caeser Dressing
(This was actually tasting pretty good!)
Dinner:
Cajun Chicken "Rice n Gravy"
1 small bone in chicken breast with skin removed
1 cup of steamed white rice
1/4 cup of deglazed pot "gravy" with Trinity (onion, bell pepers, and cerely bits)
I drink alot of water already but did not keep track of it today. Tomorrow I will do better. I did change out my brita filter pitchers so I have plenty of good tasting water to drink.
My biggest change will first to be giving up my sugar habit. I love (LOVE) sweet tea. I purposely did not buy any more sugar this past grocery trip, instead I purchased a bag of splenda. This willl take some getting used too. I also have a ton of dried Stevia, I just need to learn the proportions of how much to use to brew a natural version of sweet tea. If anyone has any advice, it would greatly be appreciated!
Sincerely,
Crystal
Breakfast
2 cups of Community Coffee with 4 teaspoons (2 per) of splenda and Fat Free Half and Half
2 cups of watermelon
Lunch
Caeser Salad:
1 small head of Romaine Lettuce
2 Tablespoon of Fat Free Caeser Croutons
1/4 cup of Romano Cheese
1 Tablespoon of Lite Bacon Bits
2 Tbs of Fat Free Caeser Dressing
(This was actually tasting pretty good!)
Dinner:
Cajun Chicken "Rice n Gravy"
1 small bone in chicken breast with skin removed
1 cup of steamed white rice
1/4 cup of deglazed pot "gravy" with Trinity (onion, bell pepers, and cerely bits)
I drink alot of water already but did not keep track of it today. Tomorrow I will do better. I did change out my brita filter pitchers so I have plenty of good tasting water to drink.
My biggest change will first to be giving up my sugar habit. I love (LOVE) sweet tea. I purposely did not buy any more sugar this past grocery trip, instead I purchased a bag of splenda. This willl take some getting used too. I also have a ton of dried Stevia, I just need to learn the proportions of how much to use to brew a natural version of sweet tea. If anyone has any advice, it would greatly be appreciated!
Sincerely,
Crystal
Sunday, July 11, 2010
New Path for the Cauldron - losing weight
Well, I really like journaling....but not been too sucessful with losing weight. I gained a pretty pound with my last pregnancy and my baby boy just turned one year old. It's time to get serious about returning to my "old" self. I have about 100 pounds to lose. I will be focusing on ten pound goals at a time.
As of this morning my current weight is 270 lbs. Yes that is correct. I stepped on the scale three different times and got the same answer. These next few weeks I will not be dieting, but focusing on changing how I live my life.
I will change my eating habits, exercise more, and steadily become the Magical woman I once was. Lately I have been feeling really crudy and tired all the time. I need to change that. I want to have the energy to play with my children. I want to have the energy to exercise and feel good about myself. I want to return to the sexy woman at 165 lbs that my husband fell in love with over a decade ago.
I am going to use this blog as my food journal by entering what I eat on a daily basis. It will help keep my on track and have a record of where I need to improve on certain areas.
Here is to be a thinner and more importantly a Healthier me!
Cheers!
Crystal
As of this morning my current weight is 270 lbs. Yes that is correct. I stepped on the scale three different times and got the same answer. These next few weeks I will not be dieting, but focusing on changing how I live my life.
I will change my eating habits, exercise more, and steadily become the Magical woman I once was. Lately I have been feeling really crudy and tired all the time. I need to change that. I want to have the energy to play with my children. I want to have the energy to exercise and feel good about myself. I want to return to the sexy woman at 165 lbs that my husband fell in love with over a decade ago.
I am going to use this blog as my food journal by entering what I eat on a daily basis. It will help keep my on track and have a record of where I need to improve on certain areas.
Here is to be a thinner and more importantly a Healthier me!
Cheers!
Crystal
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